Feaux Fanciness, Pseudo Swag, Girly Men, and Being My Own Boyfriend

Lets just jump in it, shall we?

Years and years I have been enamored with this boy. I wanted to be his girlfriend SO BAD!! And he broke my heart over and over again. I cried over this fool. And I dont cry over no man. Once I decided to really work on us being friends, but that too took months. Why all this drama over this one boy? Cuz the sex was amazing. Point. Blank. Period. But unfortunately, sex once again clouded judgement and bad decisions were made. After a well needed break, we go out and I realize one thing that Ive known all along. This boy is not worth it. He never really was. He didn't have any loyalty, he was always too timid for my blood, he had too much shadiness that accompanied his actions, and he was just overall very un-fancy. When I realized it, I was SO PISSED! I was holding onto this failing friendship because I was blinded by the dick. My feelings were so wrapped up in how he put it down that I choose to look over all his flaws. Now that Im at the point where Im absolutely fine being single, I realized that I wasted so much energy and time into him. He was faux fancy and our relationship was not going to succeed because I dont have faux fancy people in my life. So Im glad to announce he has been dropped officially and forever!!! Halleluyer.

That epiphany helped me finally come to grips that I was truly happy as a single woman. I was happy with me being by myself and the yearning for a relationship, while still present, is no longer pressing. And Im so happy because that has shown growth on my part.

This growth has also helped me shut down some other folks in my life who were trying my time. Men who think that their lip service is so smooth it cant be denied. Men who think that acting like they dont care will make me care. Men who try to sweet talk you and dog you out at the same time. You know the whole, "You fine and all but Im gonna leave the ball in your court cuz Ive got options. I just wanted you to know what it is." BOY PLEASE!! Aint nobody worried about you. Ive put myself through too much crap for those lines to have any affect on me.

Which brings me to girly men. Men, any negative characteristic that reminds a woman of herself is a no go and should be corrected at once. This includes, but not limited to, being clingy, whiny, extremely talkative and emotional, and unwillingness to deal with the truth. That mess isnt cute. Cut it out.

All the above mentioned flaws in men: being girls, pseudo swag, faux fanciness.. Has lead me to my final point. I am now my own boyfriend. Until you can bring to the table something that I cant do for myself, I will remain single. Im enough of a woman to have a man that acts like one as well. And Im not gonna decrease my fanciness so you could look remotely cool. Im looking for a relationship. Not a charity case.